i hate myself, how i am, who i am, and how i look….. i just wish i could be normal….. why do i think the way i do…. but why does he think like he does??? i just wanna be the only girl he finds sexy…. the last and only girl he looks at :( i just wanna be pretty and normal…
I can literally feel and hear my heartbeat I’m so upset right now….. He almost walked out because I overreacted….. I love him so much but I don’t know if I can take it anymore….. It’s not fair….. He shouldn’t have lied…. He should’ve told me the truth, none of this would’ve happened…. But I’m also to blame but he thinks he is ALWAYS right… :’( I don’t know what to do anymore I’m just not happy I was a lot happier being single…..
If you truely cared about what I was thinking then you would tell me that I can talk to you about it no matter what….
I’m scared she is going to kill herself….. Or me…. Since I seem to be a threat to her. She needs help and maybe if she would start respecting people and being appreciative her life would be better and she could get along with people….. I wish she could see how much we do for her and actually do care… I guess I’ll never have the big sister I wish she could be… Sad how things work :’( guess I’ll just wait and see…. So depressed with life…..
I feel like this is a one way thing…. I have to do everything a friend would and you just don’t care anymore…..